Chokyi Nyima Rinpoche with Dzongsar Khyentse and Sangye Nyenpa Rinpoche, ca 1977 |
Chokyi Nyima had already taught me quite a few times by now. When I was leaving for Darjeeling near the end of May, I went to pay my respects. As I was walking out the door he
said to me, “Erik, one second! One thing is the most important to know.”
“Thank you, Rinpoche,” replied.
Then I turned and left.
“Thank you, Rinpoche,” replied.
Then I turned and left.
Nonetheless, it stuck with me and I decided
that from now on I would ask every good lamas that I met what was the most important
thing one should know. Even though I asked many people over the years, and
heard the answer over and over again, I believed I still had not experienced it. I knew
the Tibetan words for it, and could translate them into Danish or English, but
still they seemed just more words and ideas. I had only managed to fabricate a
few more preconceived notions on top of all the others I already had. So I was
no closer to the actual experience, in fact I was closer to it back in Denmark
when I was seventeen.
After eight years of being a Buddhist I was
now further away from it than when I had started out on this path. It is
strange, and more than a bit sad, that studying the Dharma can take you further
away from what is most natural and simple. Nevertheless such was my journey. I
had done several retreats, the preliminary practices etc. and yet there I was.
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